Jehovah
At the dump, around a
bonfire, we sat,
Listening to music, until
the police came,
Then left us to our
speed-fuelled chat;
The music turned off by
him-of-no-name.
Unnoticed by me, it was
getting light;
And He-of-no-name was
suddenly;
Standing in front of you,
poised for a fight,
And pointing to the sun aggressively.
And as he ranted and
shouted at you
I tried to imagine the
row’s beginning;
What did you say to him?
What did you do?
Why did he want to send
your “Head spinning”?
Evidently, he felt the
need to declare
To everyone else, (so it
seemed to me)
That “Everything comes
from that up there”,
As if he’d just had an
epiphany.
But it was to you alone
that he said,
(And it must have hurt
like a cut with a knife)
After he’d threatened to kick
in your head;
“Get out there; make
something of your life!”
Some of us grinned at
your humiliation
But not me, though I said
and did nothing;
Being then a kid in that
situation;
I was much younger, and
he wasn’t bluffing.
I thought of you then as
a wary soul;
A scared deer before a
hunter’s gun,
And he put me in mind of
a bullying troll,
As he said, “Get to know
it”, meaning the sun.
I’d like to say I offered
you compassion
But I merely stared as
you walked away.
The party carried on
after a fashion,
Albeit the night then
turning to day.
All this happened nearly
forty years ago;
I’ve since seen it posted
that you’re now dead;
A photograph with comments
below;
You were well loved and
popular they said.
I remember you as a
sensitive man
With an open face (like
the photograph),
A reader of classics, a
Rolling Stones fan,
An extrovert, with an
infectious laugh.
How did his actions affect
you that night?
Did you strive in vain to
leave it behind?
Did the anguish remain,
try as you might,
To erase its stain from
the back of your mind?
For you were sensitive,
as already stated;
An easy target for a
bully to hit,
And harsh words can be highly
elevated;
Many a conflict starts
with bullshit.
As for him-of-no-name; he
found the lord,
And became religious
apparently.
The Jehovah’s Witnesses struck
a chord
With him (although not
with his family).
I wonder if he felt the
urge to repent
Upon finding out that
you’d passed away
Did he realise the extent
of the torment
That you surely felt on
that long ago day?
In my mind’s eye, he’s
always the bully,
Unmindful of what he put
you through.
And if I now know the sun
more fully,
It’s not because he, long
ago, told me to.